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school is hard || words with rhapsody

heyo guys long time no see

Some thoughts I’ve been having recently: Were you ever the smart one? Ever the one that everyone knew would always get the top score so there’s no point in competing with them? Ever the one who could read a hundred books in a few months, ace your classes and still have free time? Well I’m on the other side of that now. As in, the days of straight A’s aren’t necessarily gone, but oh boy is year twelve hard. Motivation on the final days of school are hard guys, hard. I go to a fancy shmancy art school and the expectations are high, competition is higher and the fight for survival is on. But how did I end up here? What has changed since being a straight A perfect year 8, to a stressed, scared and tired year 12? I’ve compiled a list of what is pulling me back, and how I’m trying to (desperately) combat them.

1- Motivation. My motivation is wearing thin, why should I try so hard if my atar might fall short anyway? What’s really in it for me? Answer: I get to complete high school, which is an amazing achievement in itself. I may not be set on what I’m going to be doing next year, but focusing on the victories I’m combatting NOW will sure as hell help me combat the big demon of lack of motivation.

2- Don’t Have Time. I simply don’t have time to do the things I love anymore. I’m writing this after animating for 6 hours straight for my studio folio. I’m dead tired and in need of a hug. I don’t want to sit down and read a book or do anything fun that requires brain power. I want to sleep for ten years and not wake up. So what do? Answer: Time! Management! I’m terrible at this. I will either sit down and do something all in one go or not do it at all, then feeling guilty about not doing it. I need to manage my time and give myself some breaks! I’m wearing thin, take care of yourself Rhapsody!!!

3- Stress. School is stressful, the pressure to do well is unbelievable. Getting good marks is so important to me, I’ve had good marks my whole life it’s too entangled with my identity (which is probably a bad thing I should stop doing) so how do I fix this? Decreasing the pressure to do well is something that happens gradually and something you have to do on your own for you and you alone. I’m still finding ways to pull myself out of the over thinking and distancing myself from what I used to think “doing well” is. Doing well is doing your best, at any time. Doing well one day might be crawling out of bed and showing up. Doing well another day might be completing all homework, participating in class and acing a test. Whatever your best is, aim for that and try not to exert yourself.

School is hard, take care of yourself. As you will be you for your entire life, but school is only a small portion of that so don’t let it kill you.

Yours,

Rhapsody.

17 comments

damnedmonkey

I agree with everything in this, especially as I am one of those stressed and oh so tired grade 12's. Motivation was all there last year but it's just left now because there's no point to doing any of the work if it just makes me feel like rubbish and I get a B for it. But yeah, doing what you believe is the best you can do (within reason) is some really good advice just like the other 300 words in that post :D

11th Mar, 19
rhapsody

Ahhh thank you, I'm so happy you got something out of this. I also recommend talking to teachers/school councillors because I got a lot of reassurance that I'm actually doing okay from them. When you're such a high achiever your understand of what good work is is clouded by your standards, so seeing it from an outside perspective from a teacher, councillor or even just another friend can help you get the motivation. good luck with year twelve, it's not the end of the world (hopefully) xx

11th Mar, 19
hufflepuffle

Why has year 12 made me tired allllll the time????????????? Can't wait for this year to end but at the same time, can it please slow down?

14th Mar, 19
rhapsody

I know right!! I'm so glad I'm taking a gap year next year, year twelve is killing me I'm going to need a year long hibernation.

31st Mar, 19
inky State Library Victoria

Sending Inky hugs!

14th Mar, 19
rhapsody

Bless you inky!!

31st Mar, 19
rebeccajane

i love your content. it makes me fell less alone. God bless your heart :)

30th Apr, 19
immyhutch

God bless your Soul;)

2nd May, 19
rhapsody

aw thank you this is so sweet <3

1st Jun, 19
lozza

Your first few sentences in paragraph three. I am the smart one who either gets a good grade from working hard... OR, gets put down by the whole middle school for not working hard ENOUGH!! Sometimes I am a bit like the content above: and find school hard but... I can give you a piece of advice, NEVER GIVE UP. (also don't work too hard either. It doesn't work.)

2nd May, 19
lozza

Never mind that post if it doesn't make sense to you (I had to skim-read to save time) I didn't QUITE absorb all the information. :l

2nd May, 19
iamweeber

school can be depressing

14th May, 19
rebeccajane

agreed

22nd May, 19
imogenborch

such a great blog

22nd May, 19
rhapsody

thank you! I try haha

1st Jun, 19
dragonwings

try school with pdsd post dramatic stressed disorder. When you get stressed about small things and you will know how I got it in my blog why me

29th May, 19
eriinfisher

I feel you! I'm Year 12 (40 days to go!) and I'm just constantly drained and exhausted. I'm doing great in all six of my subjects, but now I have to try hard to remain a top student, which just is so much effort. I'm a School Captain as well and sometimes you just feel like its time to give up and sit in a corner to cry because of the pressure and stress. Giving myself time for creative outlets that I find peaceful like blogging or reading has helped me so much though. Hope you're doing alright x

26th Aug, 19